About

As much as I drag using the word ‘I’, I feel compelled to do so in this section entitled ‘about’.  I am a grain of sand catching the same breeze as everyone else, all the while feeling through my own particular state of being.

More than ever I ask these questions on the relevance of my physical being: “Do I still have a purpose? What remains when my human story increasingly dissolves* ?”

For the past six years, I have been writing this blog on Consciousness and the Universe. Lately, my own physical self has given the center stage in my posts to an imaginary ‘being’, the little acrobat, as if I felt increasingly irrelevant. It is my micro-experience of Nothingness. The process of aging and spirituality over the years amounts to ’slipping’ into Nothingness. I also came to the realization that, as Sartre wrote, transcendence is a constitutive element of consciousness.

I often question the reasons for my doing and writing. We reveal ourselves by expressing ourselves and know ourselves with every bit of feeling. A belief is a refuge where the soul wishes to find peace.

On the winding road to the house of everything,  I hold onto the feeling that time itself stirs the soul of the Universe.

I see the Universe reveals itself by expressing itself and knows itself through every bit of experience. Counterintuitively I still see Nothingness as a rhizomatic time domain, and the Multiverse explained through multidimensionality.

I'd love to hear about everyone’s thoughts on science and philosophy. 

Catherine Toulsaly

September 2025

* Words from Bettina Wichers